But then people wonder why you all of a sudden start laughing about poop. Or they wonder why you’ll literally run away from an annoying crowd rather than follow social norms and say your polite farewells. Or they wonder why you’ll randomly move to another city without prior notice. Or they wonder why you can’t […]
…You were a 31 year old woman who was raped by a nineteen year old.
Pale light streamed into the bathroom. Leaning against the wall, I studied my slender, blue veins. How would it feel to slice them in just the right way? I felt myself slipping away again by depression’s deathly tide. He said that I looked pristine and that he found me interesting. His face lit up when I […]
Today, it dawned on me that I am officially done with online dating. I stood up my date this afternoon. We had planned to go for a walk to a local lake and it occurred to me that I would rather enjoy the walk on my own than go with a random guy that I […]
I dislike articles that generalize everyone else with the reader’s own experience, so I will write what I have personally experienced after battling severe depression on a few different occasions. 1) Those Feelings Didn’t Just “Go Away” It takes a lot of fighting and a hell of a lot of work to get to a […]
We walked through the serene graveyard, admiring some of the stones and reflecting on the other types of graveyards found in the world. I looked at the stones and felt afraid. “I feel weird. Not because I think it is creepy though.” “Well, we have all had to say good-bye to someone at a grave […]
There is one thing that I find quite strange about people I have come across while living here, and it’s that they always seem to assume that I want a relationship with someone. I guess they expect me to follow stereotypical female behaviour? Or, they can’t fathom that I just want to make friends, maybe […]
Self-Therapy Well, I am going to try a little experiment. Since, so far, therapy has not worked very well and antidepressants did not work at all, other than the first two weeks of feeling… almost unemotional… I want to try some self-therapy and see how it works. I will document my progress, and determine if […]
This song gave me a little glimpse of euphoria. May I stay connected with my inner child, and find happiness in some way, through travel and dreaming and exploring.