Hunger Games: An Allegory of Today

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Hunger Games. I read the book before it came out in the theatre. The fiction that I enjoy reading about most is survival or adventure novels. So, naturally, the strong yet vulnerable Katniss won me over as I travelled with her in spirit on a disturbing, fast-paced journey from poverty, to the elaborate setting of the Capitol, to the sick “game” where children compete against one another to survive. I recall my pulse racing several times throughout the book as well as the movie.

But this post is not about the author of Hunger Games or how much I enjoyed the book or the film. It is about how Hunger Games symbolizes the West. Namely, the North American society.

Hunger Games is set in a futuristic setting. It is in the young adult dystopian genre. Yet, in many ways, I think that a large part of the world must view we North Americans as The Capitol.

It struck me a few weeks ago when my sister Jessica and I were talking in the kitchen. It was about Black Friday. The event made me angry this year. But, a year ago, I would’ve been one of the many priviledged twenty-to-thirty-somethings ready to fill my closet with pretty new skirts and shoes and tops.

I said to Jessica in the kicthen that day, “What an interesting culture we are. We’re like ladies and lords in a kingdom. We pretend that other issues around the world aren’t happening. We change the channel if there is a World Wildlife Fund ad or an ad about starving children. It is so horrible.”

Jessica nodded. “Yes. And many of them think of the people in third world countries like peasants.”

So. Is North America, when comparing it to developing nations, all that different from the Capitol? Take away that entitlement most of us have, and look at the real picture. We are, in essence, The Capitol. Oh, yes we are.

Though the story is set in an apocalyptic future, it has an uncanny resemblance to this world. Today. Now.

How North America is Like the Capitol

1) The very superficial Capitol is much like Hollywood. While there is nothing wrong with looking presentable and caring about style, we have to admit that we have gone overboard. Objectification of women, the pressure to maintain or obtain a certain body, the need to keep up with the latest trends, etc. abounds.

2) Most people today care more about their own comforts and whims. They don’t care that children across the ocean (Or in their own community) are dying of starvation, that women in third world countries often die giving birth, that young people are trafficked or forced to work in barbaric conditions, that people everywhere are dying of hunger and thirst. Let alone the environment these entitled North Americans are destroying so they can have their fast cars and new toys.

3) Hunger is stil the top issue in many countries – not only the developing ones. People die of starvation and dehydration everyday. The rich and middle class people often turn a blind eye to those in their own community that need help.

4) North Americans often enjoy vulgar things. Emphasis on vulgar. The love of violence. Boxing, UFC and the cheering that comes in the wake of blood being spilled. The fighters are paid to do it and it’s their profession of choice, but it reminds me so much of the gladiator days. Would people be all that horrified if things were to go that way again?

Violence in pornography, violence against women in some music videos and lyrics, graphic torture and gore in film and video games. It may not cause people to act on these things, but no matter what your stance is on violence in the media, it de-sensitizes people to it. It may give certain people internal permission to try the things they fantasize about, or it prepares them to be more accepting when violence does occur. Say what you will, but this generation generally thrives on violence. What merit does it serve humanity?

5) People get swept up by the media here much like the Capitol does in Hunger Games. They are sitting there, oogling the reality TV show, sensationalized for their viewing pleasure. It is edited to make them feel for the living, breathing human beings that they are silently condoning the barbaric circumstances on. People today become immersed in meaningless TV shows and reality TV. They might know that their govenments are corrupt and that the world is being ruined, but their thoughts are too consumed in superificial things to care.

One thing that really hit home with me is that many North Americans are constantly watching atrocities from their home TVs without lifting a finger to do anything. Reminds me of the rich people in Hunger Games watching the real life survivial game without having one thought of trying to stop it.

6) These “wars” disguised as man hunts these days. Some of the American soldiers are justifying killing civillians or torturing prisoners, for instance. War on terrorism? Really? Reminds me of The Capitol.

7) Katniss and her family could represent a family in an impoverished third world town. They might see pictures of the Western society in magazines should they be “fortunate” as to stumble upon one. They know how lavish we can and do often live, and how some of us view them as filth. Their hope is for a better future, but without some means of getting on their own feet, they are subject to poverty, starvation, having 10 to 12 kids, disease, war, etc.

8) Some North Americans feel that AIDS and hunger is nature’s way of taking care of the overpopulation in Africa and India. These people have to fight everyday to live. Not just against the hunger and disease, but against other people. Violence among different circles in Africa, for example, can be ferocious. But relief or help is rarely offered by the financially stable people. They (North Americans) know it happens and most turn a blind eye. Just like those Capitol people – they view the poorer district people as nothing better than lice.

We watch Hunger Games and think “How sick! Teenagers pitted against one another for a game of life and death. Only one survivor? How wrong. How sad.”

The same situation is happening across the ocean where many, many youth and young adults fight for their lives every single day. The strongest, or craftiest, survive. All of this happens while rich people enjoy their frivalous lives of dinners and movies and bars and clubs and hockey games and home decor and living out their “American dream”.

Nothing wrong with enjoying life. It’s why we’re here. The issue is that North Americans seem to believe that world revolves around them and that life should be all about them. “Too bad for those unlucky enough to not be born here”, most think.

Conclusion:

Hunger Games is showing us at the roots of its tale that we are living in a world that is not much different from the novel’s brutal reality. The fact of the matter is, the developed world lives at the expense of the undeveloped world.

Suzanne Collins, the Hunger Games’ author, says that she got some of the ideas for the book while watching War on Iraq footage and from her father fighting in Vietnam. Both impacted her greatly.

“I don’t write about adolescence,” says Collins. “I write about war. For adolescents.”

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272 thoughts on “Hunger Games: An Allegory of Today

  1. Pingback: Hunger Games & North America | Sara Flower Writes

      • Hmm I actually dont think i have much to ask, i forgot haha.
        disengagement with the political process, pop culture’s focus on the self, and the moral relativism prevalent in western society.

        You might of answered the first 2 in your article, (The first one means they didn’t have elections and such, and the 2nd one is pop culture molding you into something you are not. correct?) But i dont think i understand the 3rd one.

  2. Haha no worries. Yes, pretty much. Moral relativism that is so widespread in western society – that’s a good topic! You are making me think. I like it when people make me think – very few do. It’s so hard to have a set of morals that everyone subscribes to, of course. Most people, even if they are not Christian, would generally agree with the Ten Commandments (i,e. Thou shalt not steal, thous shalt to commit murder, etc.) Yet, in some scenarios, we can relate and understand why someone who is starving would steal from a store or why someone fighting back to defend themselves might accidentally kill someone to prevent themselves from being murdered or beaten up.

    I also think that people in North America are disgusted and appalled, of course, when a child or adult is brutally murdered, or when there is a mass murder of innocent people.. But you see them almost shrug their shoulders when the same atrocities are committed overseas. Some people, like my Grandmother, actually think that certain nationalities deserve such horrid conditions. My Grandma actually thought that it served the Japanese right to have that earthquake after what they did to Pear Harbour. To Peal Harbour? A military attack on a military base somehow justifies innocent people, including young children, being hurt and killed? Apparently, when people hold moral relativism in their veins.

    Also think of people ignoring the sweatshop companies, just so they can save a buck.

    I’m not sure if that answers your question on moral relativism or not, but this was fun to type. πŸ™‚

  3. Yeah, I think that a lot of people are very much disengaged with the political process in this generation, like the people of the Capitol. The rich don’t seem to care about the poor and they will vote in those that cater to them. As for pop culture telling us to focus and improve on ourselves – so true. This generation is a victim of corporate hoaxes and people with wealth tend to show it off – and middle class people are always trying to keep up with the rich people. There is no focus on the atrocities that are committed all over the world. Most North Americans can’t stand going without their newest toys or without their precious Cable TV, knowing deep down that they are spending loads of their income on themselves without one thought on the less fortunate.

    Perhaps everyone should go on a trip to a remote area at least once a year to understand that there is more to life than buying things and watching brain cell destroying shows. Once they do that, then maybe they could bring themselves to go on a trip to a third world country and see how many people really live. Maybe, just maybe, their selfishness might ease up just a little.

  4. I am shamed to say all of this without actually being able to do anything yet – but once I finally get ahead, I vow to use my success to help people as bask in money like a spoiled, over-fed cat. πŸ™‚

    • I completely agree. After reading your article, i felt terrible. I would always kind of hate myself whenever i said my life sucked because it could be worse. My parents got divorced, and i still see my dad. But what about kids who’s parents died or werent there for them? And then you look even deeper and say, look, you have cable, internet, games, pets, a home, etc. People in poverty or third world countries have nothing except a hope for a better future. Right now, im only just now about to get out of high school, so its extremely hard for me to do something. But when i get a chance, i hope i can help people. That’s what important in my life anyways. I dont want to change the world or make a difference, because thats all about me. I just want to help and make people feel good. Its a shame many people dont see it like that. Maybe, just maybe, if the odds are in our favor, one day we will meet and help the world together.

      Sounds cool anyways πŸ™‚

      Thanks again. Not only does this help me on my project, but it gives my incredible insight and a wake up call that i think i desperately needed.

  5. That’s so awesome that you want to help people once you get the chance. I’m glad you’ve been able to count your blessings too – it’s natural to feel down when things aren’t going so well and people will hurt us whether we’re in North America or in India.

    I am happy to hear that this post gave you a new insight. I really hope to get to the point where I can really start doing something too – I just need to plan my life a lot better! But it will happen.

    You never know, we might just cross paths one day! πŸ™‚ All the best with your project.

  6. Honestly, i was suprised this had no comments. Maybe people are just lazy.

    I think more people should read this, because it really does make you think.

    Nobody on my Facebook cared, at least i dont think they did when i posted the link. But i have to do an essay AND a presentation, so i guess there’s my chance to spread the info πŸ˜‰

    • Oh, I know. It’s like whoa – post about anything to do with helping the world and people get either annoyed or they’re like “Meh.” Thanks for posting the link on your Facebook though! lol πŸ™‚

      A presentation can be fun – lots of luck with that. And thanks!

  7. Hey there! If you don’t mind, What do you think of this? Its an article i found, but i dont totally understand.

    You know the story: While the provinces starve, the Capital City lives it up, its big-shots growing fat on the tribute extracted from the rest of the country.

    We don’t live in “The Hunger Games” yet, but I’m not the first to notice that Washington, D.C., is doing a lot better than the rest of the country. Even in upscale parts of L.A. or New York, you see boarded up storefronts and other signs that the economy isn’t what it used to be. But not so much in the Washington area, where housing prices are going up, fancy restaurants advertise $92 Wagyu steaks, and the Tyson’s Corner mall outshines — as I can attest from firsthand experience — even Beverly Hills’ famed Rodeo Drive.
    Meanwhile, elsewhere, the contrast is even starker. As Adam Davidson recently wrote in The New York Times, riding the Amtrak between New York and D.C. exposes stark contrasts between the “haves” of the capital and the have-nots outside the Beltway. And he correctly assigns this to the importance of power.

    Washington is rich not because it makes valuable things, but because it is powerful. With virtually everything subject to regulation, it pays to spend money influencing the regulators. As P.J. O’Rourke famously observed: “When buying and selling are controlled by legislation, the first things to be bought and sold are legislators.” But it’s not just bags-of-cash style corruption. Most of the D.C. boom is from lobbyists, PR people and others who are retained to influence what the government does. It’s a cold calculation: You’re likely to get a much better return from an investment of $1 million on lobbying than on a similar investment in, say, a new factory or better worker training.

    So Washington gets fat, and it does so on money taken from the rest of the country — either directly, in the form of taxes, or indirectly, in the form of money that otherwise would have gone to that factory or training program.

    I’m not the only one to notice this, or even to make the “Hunger Games” analogy. As Ross Douthat wrote, “There aren’t tributes from Michigan and New Mexico fighting to the death in Dupont Circle just yet. But it doesn’t seem like a sign of national health that America’s political capital is suddenly richer than our capitals of manufacturing and technology and finance, or that our leaders are more insulated than ever from the trends buffeting the people they’re supposed to serve.”

    No, it’s not a sign of health. And it’s no coincidence that our lawmakers have weathered the recession better than America has.

    It’s a sign of illness. And it’s exactly the illness that federalism and limited national government was designed to prevent. The reason this approach isn’t working any more is that we’re not following it.

    Under the original Constitutional plan, the federal government’s powers were to be few, and mostly concerned with external relations. Under those circumstances, the risk of corruption was comparatively low. Nearly all regulation would come from state governments. They might be corrupted — since they’d be the only ones worth corrupting — but problems would be compartmentalized (corruption in Rhode Island wouldn’t have much effect on Connecticut, much less Utah) and disciplined by competition with other states.

    Well, it’s been quite a while since things worked that way; things started go go downhill with the federal expansion under the New Deal, and then really took off after the “regulatory explosion” under President Nixon, who created such entities as the Environmental Protection Agency and Occupational Safety & Health Administration.

    It’s no coincidence that as the federal government morphed from an entity that did a few highly visible things well, to one that did a whole lot of not-so-visible things less well, respect for the federal government plummeted even as the political class’ wealth climbed.

    That’s where we are now, with a capital city that looks more and more like that of an imperial power where courtiers and influence- peddlers abound. Want to do something about it? Don’t secede. Return to the Constitution.

  8. Ooh I wish I had of taken politics or economics in school. Instead, I took science. Fun, but not as fun as this. hahahaha. Okay, hmm. This is an interesting article. It basically says that when things were simpler, before the federal expansion. When there are fewer people in power, there is less risk for corruption. Things are becoming messed up now, with the U.S, depending on imports and with jobs becoming more scarce because of improper spending and companies moving across the border. All of a sudden, the distance between rich and poor becomes greater. Middle class begins to vanish. Like in the Hunger Games. Interesting comparison with how the capital of the U.S. is like the Capitol in Hunger Games. Scary stuff.

    Good grief it all seems so dark and bleak, but it’s the reality. I just read an article that a friend posted on Facebook about the 5 stages of collapse. Oh my God it’s actually pretty scary when your mind grasps what could happen, but honestly governments should have looked into the future to understand how the future would be affected by such decisions. Anyway, did this help at all? lol

  9. Haha , dont worry, coming from a lazy guy myself, your laziness is fine :P. Yeah it makes sense to me. Thanks πŸ™‚

    It’s a sign of illness. And it’s exactly the illness that federalism and limited national government was designed to prevent. The reason this approach isn’t working any more is that we’re not following it.

    So basically, it is saying that Federalism ( National & State Gov) and Limited National Gov were supposed to prevent Washington from becoming something like the Capitol, like becoming rich and powerful while the rest of the country isnt as well off. Right?

  10. I suddenly feel like a nerdy kid doing someone else’s homework…Just kidding. And yes, your last comment summed up the article quite well! It is a sign of illness that was just waiting to break out for a while now. And now things are becoming dire. “Where are all the jobs?” “I have to move out of my house because I am making minimum wage!” Not fun. Blah.

    I actually think that excessive consumerism of a large population is also screwing everything up. Everyone is all “buy, buy, buy!” or “Borrow, borrow, borrow!” Banks allowed people to go into such debt in past years and now they aren’t making enough money to pay them off. If things were run simpler and if people lived simpler, we would have been a lot better off.

  11. I think Student Loans are stupid. Like people can’t afford expensive $20,000 colleges, but they need that to get jobs. So they get into massive debt for 10-20 years.

  12. Desensitize means to make less sensitive. So when it says America has become desensitized, what does that mean? Less sensitive to acts of violence?

    I like your answers, so thats why im asking you. πŸ™‚

  13. Yes, desensitized means that people aren’t as affected by acts of violence or people’s suffering. We live in society where many people are apathetic about alot of things, which is never good. And, glad you like my answers!

  14. What is your opinion on why , for example, Call of Duty, ( A first person shooter), among all other games and genres (Some way less violent) , is one of the most popular games.

    Ill admit it, i played SOCOM and such, which were tactical first person shooter games. Like why is shooting and killing “fun”.?

    I understand in Call of Duty, things are fast paced. My thoughts are that adrenaline overpowers other things and makes you want more, regardless of what it is.

    • Haha I actually got really into Call of Duty last year. The Black Ops zombie one, of course. I guess I justified it because I figured “They’re already dead.” It is about the adrenaline, for sure. Oh my gosh it can get pretty intense actually. I am not sure what effect video games have on this desensitization on the real world, but I have noticed that people just don,t seem to care about the brutality done to other people. Then again, people that are from generations prior to the video game era were desensitized to what the Americans did the Japanese people after their military bombed Pearl Habour. Maybe, people have people always been like this – as long as the killing is done far from home, they just ignore it?

  15. I got side tracked with the other thought. To actually answer your question about the tactile first person shooter games being fun, I suppose it has to do with adrenaline overpowering other things. We weren’t made to sit for extended periods of time, so video games or action movies can help satisfy that need for adrenaline, especially for people who live in urban settings. I found that once I started working out and walking more, video games and TV shows became meh to me. I think you are right that adrenaline is addictive.

    • Not sure, haven’t gotten a grade. My presentation is on March 20th. Ill let you know when I’m done :). My essay turned out pretty good I think. Your blog was a great help. Thanks again.

  16. Oh boy, apparently i need to write down a class activity and handouts i might give out….
    Crap. Any ideas?

    Ugh i don’t even know. What can i handout that relates to “How America is like the Capitol”?

    • Hey Trevor! Sorry for the late reply. I am about to move across the country so things have been crazy busy. I will get back to you once I’m a little more settled… you have until the 20th?

      • Wow! Good luck with your move!

        Sorry, im just trying to brainstorm and thought maybe you might have something in mind.

        And yes, i present on the 20th.

        Thanks and good luck again!

    • Hey! I am really sorry for the late reply. I was still adjusting to my new home and ugh sorry. What did you decide to do? I hope your presentation went well! Things are great here – I am living in the wilderness now which is great!

      • Sounds awesome! It went pretty good! I decided to have my own reaping and select 1 man and 1 woman to have the honor of a Cupcake with a mockingjay on it. Haha πŸ™‚ happy hunger games πŸ˜›

        And no worries!

    • Ha! Nah I don’t have so much wisdom, but thank you. Hm, maybe we could stir up another hunger games allegory again. I read a blog post weeks ago about how Hunger Games, like many dystopian books, is only entertainment rather than representative of what is actually going on in the world. I was surprised that they couldn’t figure out how clear it is that the bottom 99% are subject to the 1% like the have nots are in comparison to the Capitol. Also, comments from my parents who aren’t even in the 1%, but are in the upper middle class think privatized health care should be more prevalent and don’t agree with government funding of arts programs and the like. Well, it’s just a thought I’ve been chewing over today.

  17. Im surprised i was able to hold a good conversation. It was mostly my own thoughts. I dont really get politics and all that jazz.

    Oops.

    But i mean its fun to talk about how crappy the Government and state of the US is.

    Crazy to think you can play a sport and earn 120 million over a few years.

    I just don’t think a big mass of people have the right idea of how to live and make things better.

    I was reading “Eat the Yolks” by Liz Wolfe, explaining the ignorance and idiotic traits of America. False or misinterpreted studies lead to a extreme lack of understanding and nutrition for decades.
    It just speaks to how influential the media is and how it makes me sick that people could work for companies that make food that your own family could/is probably eating. Something as simple as nutrition is severally broken and we expect to fix all these other major issues? I mean people don’t even figure to look at the ingredients to find out a granola bar needs a list as long as a dictionary to make. Sigh.

    • You held the conversation well and your thoughts were very open and intelligent. I don’t have the best understanding of politics myself, though I find it interesting. I’m more of a psychology person… human psychology plays such a huge role in all of this, how we feed the machine by being brainwashed and how we focus so much on buying this and that to fill a void or keep up with friends/ peers.
      Omg what you said about health, it’s true! The amount of flack that organic foods get from those who don’t want to pay a little extra for non-chemical-ridden meat, veggies and fruit is unreal. Like you said, they won’t even consider how much additives and harmful chemicals are in their Fibre 1 granola bars and they’ll eat at McDonald’s while partially knowing how much grease and meat fillers are in the “food”. If you try to tell people to watch out for their health, they get so defensive like you’re telling them to go shovel shit for free. *β€’* Sorry.
      Well, I hope you’re doing well! I forgot to ask you if you chose a college/university major or what your future plans were. I suspect you’re going to do well in life! πŸ™‚

  18. I plan to go to Full Sail. Right now im serving in the Army. I want benefits and stuff. Not so much fight for our “freedom” blah blah. I got me lots of nice fruits, veggies, and meats yesterday, and i made a few nice meals…although im still hungry and crave sweets like crazy, ahah.

    Yeah the food stuff is crazy. Would you believe that Cholesterol and Saturated fat (albeit from natural foods) are really good for you? I havent researched into it but the author seems to be very informational and knowledgeable Plus, you know, i can see the US food industry’s lies and whatnot that she speaks of.

    Whole grains? Nope. Egg Yolks? YES!
    Fish? YES! Fish Oil Pills? nooooooooooo!

    Basically. xD.

    • Oh wow! That must be intense, but it’s good you’ll be getting benefits and education covered. And that’s great how you’re staying strong with avoiding the sweets! The best feeling ever is buying fresh fruits and veggies and happy meat. I love whole foods but i haven’t been making much money yet so sadly I’ve been eating bad… But starting tomorrow I’m forcing myself not to eat junk food just because I’m stressed. It’s a catch 22. Stressed from being broke so I spend money I shouldnt on crap. I can’t wait to buy good food again and make some good meals like you just did. That’s cool about the saturated fats and cholesterol from foods like eggs. It makes sense though because it’s from natural sources as long as it’s in moderation. That margarine and low fat stuff is essentially poison and it tastes gross anyway. Good for you for reading that book and making an effort to be healthy. Also, good to know about the fish oil! I like to take that for omega 3s but if whole fish is better, ill do that. πŸ™‚

  19. Yes, i mean you can get all you need from food. Which is ironic that we make multivitamins and supplements. Also, veganism is not recommended. You might see lots of healthy people but the truth is Meats are full of complete fats and proteins unlike plants. As long as you get the good stuff, you should be okay. And actually, about the moderation part, she said that a high cholesterol has nothing to do with health. Eating cholesterol is completely different than your blood cholesterol. Saturated fats are good for you. I have a bunch of highlighted screencaps with information. Im really craving sweets so ill try to make some homemade desserts. I just want everyone to try these things because i know, for example, parents go out and buy “Whole Grain” products, sugary snacks, etc.

    Even things for pets can be extremely detrimental to their health, especially canned foods. Tons of byproducts and such.

    I forgot to buy eggs…..im kind of sad because i want eggs for breakfast. 😦

    • It’s funny you mention veganism because I’ve often struggled with becoming vegetarian, but with my low iron and other issues, I don’t think that could be an option anyway. Plus as you mentioned with the fish, you get those essential oils and good fat you can’t get from veggies alone. I think there needs to be a huge reform with how animals are treated on farms, but veganism seems pretty difficult for the reasons you said. I didn’t know that the cholesterol in meat was different from blood cholesterol. Cool!
      Hm I didn’t realize the whole wheat stuff was so bad, but good to know. I prefer the taste of rye bread and it settles easier in my stomach than regular bread. Omg I hear ya about parents buying sugary snacks. My parents got into organic stuff when I was in my teens, but they’d buy a lot of organic desserts and say it was okay to eat huge prices because it was organic lol! Live and learn.
      Mmm home made desserts sound good. Gosh you’re putting me to shame… The way I ate today would probably make you gag. But tomorrow is a new day.
      Yeah and about the pets… My dog ended up getting seizures and the vet thought it could have been from food additives. 😦 it was terrible.
      Eggs are amazing because they give you so much energy and there’s so much you can do with them. That’s something I should have bought too.
      I need to start eating better again. You’ve inspired me! πŸ™‚

      • Woohoo! Aha. Yeah i spent like $200 on bulk stuff but i still want eggs, carrots, mushrooms, and I WANT SOMETHING SWEET because im seriously craving cookies or something.

        Did you know Sunscreen is WORTHLESS!? It is apparently extremely weak compared to European made ones, and only protects against UVB rays, not UVA. UVA is the damaging one. Basically, you get Vitamin D from sun exposure. When your skin has enough, it gets redder, telling you to get some shade. We are blocking our natural defense to sunburn.

        Also there is a chemical that can increase the growth rate of skin tumors. How nice.

        I hope to not only eat better, but be more knowledgeable. Learn skills, get physically stronger, the usual.

        BUT IM REALLY LAZY AND I LOVE TO NOT COMPLETE MY GOALS UGH

      • Hmm when I used to eat healthier I would eat apples with peanut butter for something sweet, or those kashi bars with dark chocolate. I know a chiropractor who makes his eom organic chocolate fudge at home which is pretty sweet.

        I NEED to get back to being healthier. Like, this week. πŸ™‚
        It’s great goals you have. Being fit and healthy feels so amazing. I was very fit and active in my late 20s and then travelling took me off the course. One thing I’ve learned is that you need some routine/stability at some point or you lose focus. So I know how it is to not complete goals .
        But you’re already winning half the battle by eating well and by doing your own reading. So kudos to you!
        And about sunscreen… That’s so nasty! :S like what the hell, chemicals that induce tumour growth? Hm you’d think corporations were trying to kill us or something… Or make us sick at the least.

  20. Of course not! All the industries and corporations are here to give us deals and steals and protect us and keep us healthy and tell us the truth!

    What are you, a conspiracy theorist!?

    (Ahahah…yeah they suck dont they)

    • Haha! I like your point. I think a lot of food companies have some sort of a deal with pharmaceutical companies. Even for issues like mental health, some doctors seem too ready to give people addictive sedatives and antidepressants that often barely work. I think they must get kick backs from the pharmaceutical companies. It’s scary, but it’s better to understand how things work and maybe we can change something. It’s hard to know where to begin sometimes, but I guess buying local and organic might be a good start? Not supporting those companies that would run over you with a smile like a psychopath. πŸ™‚ “Conspiracy theorists” unite! Haha.

  21. Ahaha.

    If you find any good recipes for healthy sweets i need to know because im still craving sweets and all i have is fruits! NOT CHOCOLATELY ENOUGH.

  22. Also i think i want to try coffee. I had some hazelnut/french vanilla mix but it has..TRANS FAT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

    Organic Please.

    • Oh no! I hate how they add that to so many yummy things. Coffee is so good! I like it medium roast with a bit if cream and it’s perfect! πŸ™‚ when I start getting steady pay cheques I wanna get some organic coffee too! The good news is there’s a lot of fair trade coffee that’s also organic out there. #wholefoods πŸ™‚

  23. Woo!

    Also want to know what i can do for meats. Glazes, spices, and such. I have some chicken, shrimp, and fish. All i use now is sweet butter, worchester sauce, and/or garlic and herb spice.

    Cinnamon and stuff sounds good since i have fruit and oatmeal. Also CHOOOOCOLATE.

    • Mmm I’m getting so hungry lol. I wish I liked cooking as much as I like to eat. I didn’t even know there was such a thing as sweet butter. 😦 My culinary skills are bland, but I want to start cooking more with curry. That stuff is so good!!
      Also, I’m jealous of you – I want shrimp too!
      The oatmeal and cinnamon with fruit sounds good. Um, if you aren’t allergic to nuts, chocolate almond milk is so freaking good!

  24. Yeah i love almond milk! And the butter i got is “Sweet Cream butter”. Its pretty good!

    Glad i did absolutely nothing this weekend. I had a 4 day but you know, as usual, i didnt do anything. I pretty much played games, cooked, and marathon Avatar The Last Airbender, a childhood tv series favorite of mine.

    Although i do want to do some work related notes and stuff…owell.

    I do want to get better and drawing and photoshop and writing. I used to write when i was younger, but i never got far. I dont know if it would be fictional, nonfictional, my thoughts…. so many possibilities.

    (Are ya happy i got away from food? Ahaha)

    • Well, doing nothing is ok sometimes especially on the weekend. I didn’t do much this weekend either aside from write and go for walks and watch movies. Hoping to exercise tomorrow after work. You can always start the work notes tomorrow. πŸ™‚
      That’s cool you want to better your skills in those things. Drawing is so fun! Do you like using colour ever? I want to dabble in graphic novel drawing maybe lol.
      And that’s awesome you want to write again! I think that the best way to get into writing is to find your voice, if that makes sense. A good way to do this is by stream of consciousness writing. Where you just pretty much start writing a thought down and see where it leads you. Or! Writing prompts really help get you started. It’s a good way to figure out if you’re into story writing or nonfiction. Or sometimes writers like to dabble in both so that could be you too. Starting a blog is also a good way to get your thoughts down. There’s lots of possibilities with writing, you’re right.

      Yes, I’m glad we got off the topic of food. πŸ™‚

  25. Yeah, i just have to try some of those methods. I just wish i could learn doing things hands on and with someone in person rather than over the internet. I dont feel i can truly learn and do things right. Maybe its me not being determined and dedicated enough.

    Hopefully i can get better and drawing and then transfer that into digital works.

    (If i could make money off of that, that would be just dandy)

    • That sounds pretty interesting btw with wanting to transfer drawings to digital.
      I don’t think it’s a lack of dedication on your part at all. It makes sense especially with creative stuff that you’d want to learn hands on. I’ve been trying to get plugged in with a creative group or two in my city using meetups. Maybe you could try joining a drawing/design/etc. group to help keep you motivated? I think that would help. I’d go with you if we lived somewhat close, as silly as that sounds since we started talking via this blog. You can never have too many creative buddies. πŸ™‚
      On the topic of food (which actually is fun to talk about!) I tried this gluten free brown rice based pasta. What’s your opinion on that? It’s definitely yummy and hopefully boosts some energy.

  26. Gluten Free is always good! Unless its the main selling point of a processed food…

    Brown rice i think is the best rice. So thats good πŸ™‚

    Also tell me what you think of this line from Avatar:

    No, I’ve learned everything! And I’ve had to learn it on my own! Growing up, we were taught that the Fire Nation was the greatest civilization in history. And somehow, the War was our way of sharing our greatness with the rest of the world. What an amazing lie that was. The people of the world are terrified by the Fire Nation. They don’t see our greatness. They hate us! And we deserve it! We’ve created an era of fear in the world. And if we don’t want the world to destroy itself we need to replace it with an era of peace and kindness.

    Sound familiar?

    • Ok well that’s good to know. Phew.

      And that’s a powerful line from avatar. Wow. Yes, it’s very familiar, and replacing “Fire nation” with “North America would fit in exactly with today. I just love the idea of a peace era. Why couldn’t everyone else see things like this? Why can’t leaders stop sending bombs and drones to make a statement?
      I also like the opening part. “And I’ve had to learn it on my own.” Because so many older people lied/lie to us about what the right way is to live.

  27. I dont think TOTAL peace is reachable but maybe just a little bit? You know? Less Muricah, More Life and happiness and cookies!

    • You’re right, I don’t think a fully peaceful world could exist, but ateast if no more bombs were made, even that would make a huge difference, eh?
      Tehee I like that- more happiness, life, and cookies. πŸ™‚ perfect!
      Btw my parents make these almond butter cookies and I can find the recipe for them if you want.

    • So, I got it! They’re healthy, they were the only sweet my mom ate while she was really sick, and they taste good. They’re flour free.
      1/2 teaspoon baking soda
      1 teaspoon vanilla extract
      1/8 to 1/4 cup xylitol
      1 cup almond meal
      1 egg
      1/2teaspoon grated lemon peel

      Preheat oven to 325 F.
      Grease cookie sheets with grape seed oil. Stir together almond meal, xylitol and baking soda in medium bowl. Add beaten egg and vanilla extract and mix well. Shape dough into balls one inch apart on cookie sheet.
      Bake for 10 minutes until puffed and golden.
      Drizzle with unsweetened chocolate for added flavour.

      So I was wrong about them using almond butter, it’s almond meal. πŸ™‚

      • Question

        What quality about you do you think changed the most and why/how?

        Partial reason for joining the Army was because i thought it would make me tougher… But i still feel weak, lazy, scared, nervous, and dependent.

      • That’s a really good question. I think I still have a lot of issues, but what has changed is the confidence in my own actions/goals. I don’t let other people influence me as much as I used to. I still get pretty scared too, but I feel like I can at least trust myself now. And I value things I never used to value as much. Hm… I hope that somewhat answers your question. πŸ™‚ did it?
        I can understand how you must feel, being really young and trying to feel brave and independent. I think that there’s a lot of pressure for people to know what they want by a certain age, but life doesn’t actually work like that for most. It shows initiative that you made a change so you could become “tougher”. I don’t even know if I think that tough is a good thing. You’ve got some great goals so far, with wanting to write and draw, and you’re clearly a thinker and know how a lot of society works. I didn’t really think about the harm of corporations until I was almost 30! So you’ve got a good head on your shoulders.
        I think sometimes someone just needs some form of stability, like a job that doesn’t drive you crazy but will pay the bills, or a person in their life who motivates them, in order to think straight and feel confident to really go for their goals. What makes you feel scared? Why do you think you feel lazy? I think that any significant change in life can make us feel a little anxious, scared, and lost. Sometimes it just takes a solid plan, written on paper for you to see, to give you that motivation to achieve the steps it takes to reach you goals. I hope that doesn’t sound stupid lol because I really think writing down goals so they are visible helps a lot.
        Please don’t feel weak, it sounds like you’re just in a certain phase of life and it’s only a phase.
        I think you’re braver than you think you are! πŸ™‚
        Sorry if this was super long! I hope it helped a little?

      • Yeah you made some good points. I already know im a good person with good intentions, but sometimes that just doesn’t cut it. I dont think ive “worked hard” for a long period of time to achieve a long term goal, ever. Maybe here and there, little things, but nothing major. I always have so much hype and thought but it never really translates to results.

        Maybe its me not getting enough sleep or something, but i always feel lost. Trying to learn without getting hands on makes me extemely bored and lost.

        Basically i NEED to be confident, independent, and self-reliable to be able to do my job because its really important. I need to be able to carry my own weight and contribute and be able to go out on my own without hesitation or doubt.

        I keep telling myself these things but never seem to improve.

      • You know, it’s not a bad thing at all that you learn and thrive better from hands on experience. If you have great ideas and think a lot about them, that’s already a great start. You’ve chosen a temporary position with the army and I do think that having a steady income can provide you with basic needs to give you the energy and stability to go for your goals. It sounds like you would do better with a mentor or a group of people when trying to learn a new skill.
        You won’t always feel lost!
        Honestly, I want so much to be able to offer some worth while advice and help you, but my own life is a mess aside from writing, which right now only serves as a hobby and a means of staying sane. But my situation is a product from years of not pursuing a worthwhile degree and skipping along through life with nothing but dreams and idealism. You’re not very naive, from what I gather, so I think you’re already off to a good start. πŸ™‚ you’re already asking yourself how you can become more confident and motivated, and I think you’ll be able to get your answers because you’re asking yourself some good questions. Maybe people who have the career/job/life that you want to have are the best ones to seek advice from.
        Keep focusing on those goals and find a reasonable way to reach them and I think you’ll be fine.
        I hope this helped you at least somewhat. I wish I could offer you some better advice.

      • Plua yeah im nervous and anxious about all this training we are doing for the next 8 months.

        Also going to a thing next week with just one other guy and expected to work hard and fast.

      • Aw! Hang in there. It’s normal to feel nervous, but you can do it. πŸ™‚ Is there someone you could speak to about there about how you’re feeling anxious? It is better to talk to someone about options on how to deal with it than just torture yourself, if you’re feeling very anxious. I’ve found that stretching before bed and meditating can help relax you and help you sleep better.
        I think any new experience, army or otherwise, can be a bit nerve wracking at first. Just know that you’re not trapped and that you may find you’ll end up liking it. Maybe you’ll make an awesome friend.

      • Yeah because im in one now.

        Met her on vacation and talked a bunch on skype and facebook and started to play games and such together as well. Shes my cousins step sister. So shes not related to me but .. Yeah the whole things crazy.

        I got to meet her again and have an awesome time on the july 4th weekend. To see her, i have to put in a pass on four-day weekends.

        I know what LDRs demand but i wish i didnt have to deal with the Army and being away from her at the same time.

        But at the same time, i get time off, money, and get to go by myself to see her.

        Still sucks though

      • Problem is 4 days arent guaranteed and i have to put in a request and do this whole process.

        And it could be months before I even get a chance to see her.

        Happy to have her , just mad that it has to be like this and then reminded of it when I see others together. My roomate, my friends, facebook. Ugh.

      • Aw that must be hard! I can understand how that must feel though I’ve never had a long distance relationship, I seem to piss people off or whatever before it gets to that point. They wouldn’t want to travel 20 minutes to see me let alone make an effort that you’re making for your girlfriend even though you’re both far away. πŸ™‚ I’m sure it sucks seeing your friends and other people with lovers. Lol keep thinking positive is all I can say, I guess. Hopefully you’ll be able to see her soon.

      • Went to a market today.

        You know, doesn’t sound too bad making homemade recipes and making some profit off that.

        Seems like fun if i had a partner.

      • I think your idea is great!
        Umm as for me, nothing too exciting other than writing most days, and I’m looking to get my short story edited once I’ve got some extra funds. Lol I’m actually anxious about my new job, it isn’t for me, but the pay is why I need to make it work for at least a few months. I’m just so ready to try and experience new things and a steady job is what ensures that.

      • Oh wow sounds awesome!

        Hope that turns out well.

        I hope it turns out so well a magical basket of cookies floats onto your doorstep. Aha.

      • I’ve been sick this weekend and so lazy. But I’m stoked for tomorrow because I’m going to get a sketchbook and pencils and start drawing after work, and work lots on editing my novel all this week. πŸ™‚ so tomorrow I’ll send glittering blue dust by the wind over to you which will be heavily concentrated with motivation. πŸ™‚ lol

      • Sounds great! Ahaha ill make sure to catch it!

        Ill also try starting my work book and my health book note thingy.

        Leave early tomorrow on my way back to base 😦 i love home and futon and dogs xD

      • Yes, be sure to catch it! πŸ™‚ lol
        That’s a great idea to get both of those books started next week.
        Aw! Well I hope you had a good time off and I’m sure you’ll do fine back at the base.

      • In my head its just “yeah ill get it over with…ahh its whatever”

        Then it hits like “aw crap…oh god i hate this”

        Funfun. Cant wait till Xmas break.

      • Aw I know that feeling. I hope today went well? At least that’s already one day down! πŸ™‚ I feel pretty anxious about this job.. I literally get panic attacks and it’s not logical but I can’t control it. I feel bad too because you are dealing with a lot more work and stuff so I should feel fine. I’m sure you’re looking forward to the break in December. It’s not too far off now.

      • Had a great weekend. Hate it when its over and it feels like you just blinked.

        Back to reality. This couple days might suck. Oh well, cant wait till all this is over.

      • Ooh right it’s thanksgiving! I almost forgot since I worked lol. That’s good you had a nice weekend. You might be dreading it all but once you’re there it’s usually better than you thought it would be.

      • Procrastinated and didnt do any of my notes.

        oh well. XD

        Yeah thanksgiving i have some time off. Might be headed up with mom to see my girl.

      • Lol that blue dust full of motivation is still trying to find you. Omg I sound like a weirdo!
        Nice, hopefully you’ll be able to see your gf. I think life’s easier when a significant other is there to cheer you on/make you laugh/whatever.

  28. Yeah. Just got back from a 3 day field thing. Tomorrow off, and then Monday starts the training cycle. Stuffs gettin real!

    • Yes, you are! πŸ˜› have you tried writing some objectives down? Lol that must sound so stupid but I’ve found that writing things down and seeing it there helps get things done. For me, my biggest distraction is the internet. I’ve been horrible this weekend too!’

  29. Oh yeah. Gaming and internet and whatnot….oops.

    I have to actually do stuff Sunday to get ready but trying to find motivation to go to bed is going to be difficult.

    • Lol I actually spent a part of my night looking at dinosaur pictures ! So I hear ya. Well, I have every confidence that you’ll have the motivation to do what needs to be done tomorrow. πŸ™‚ and maybe try relaxing and not doing any internet activities half an hour before bed to allow yourself to wind down.

  30. It was up most of the time until the very end, and it got rough. We’ll see how things go from here. We did a 15 mile foot march to finish. Im aching all over.

  31. Oh yeah.

    For fun,

    I got moved to be the “main guy” (Which was kind of a shock and it was really sudden and i feel unprepared) and my roomate moved out. Took his internet with him xD

      • yeah i kinda am really bad with words. And she can be a bit…..sassy sometimes xD

        I was really unmotivated to sleep and just wanted to talk to her. Long story short, i did realize that she is a bit more…ok a lot more articulate with her responses. Or they are just actually worded pretty good, where i am like just a mess. Oh Well.

        Its just rough for both of us in our seperate situations. I know she is in a tough spot.

      • Ooh you have a sassy girl. Sassy girls keep things interesting, I’ll wager. πŸ™‚ Aw I am sure that your replies aren’t a mess at all. It’s nice that you got to talk to her. It sounds like a rough situation to be in, but it also sounds like you’re both really making this work so that’s good.

  32. Yeah. Ill see how it really is in the upcoming weeks.

    Its just a huge step up to responsibility and pressure to know my job extremely well.

  33. Ahah…no need to brag!

    Anyways, i got see my Girlfriend for the weekend. Man do i enjoy it. Second time so far. I just hate coming back and having a turnaround of less than 7 hours to wake up and get ready for the field and work and blah

    • Oh but it’s so rare that I brag about myself. πŸ™‚
      Aw I’m really glad that you got to see your gf on the weekend. I’m sure that was nice. Lol I’m sure the turnaround isn’t so nice. Makes sense. But it sounds like you’re starting to settle in to army life?

      • Yeah it sucked. Got these bad blisters on my heels.
        Guess im getting settled in but not really. XD
        Yeah whenever i get to see her, im happy, which i feel is rare. Its nice to feel happy and relaxed and loved. But always the crushing pain of leaving.

      • That makes sense, actually, but you know, it’s awesome that you have someone whom you care that much about to return to.
        I’m not exactly a sap, but from my perspective of being a lone wolf of nearly four years, I say it sounds like you’ve got something to be very grateful for. πŸ™‚ As sad as it is to leave, at least the separation is only temporary.

        Holy crap… to feel happy and relaxed and loved just sounds like a wishful dream to me. You’re lucky, kiddo. It’s the real deal for you.

        Hope those blisters heal up soon!

      • Its crazy. I mean its not ideal. Its not cheap.. Lol. But idk if its me or what but just little things are amazing. Maybe becuase im an emotional sap or maybe because i just feel like someone likes me holy crap AND theyre willing to do this long distance thing.

        I am grateful. So happy and glad because i mostly rely on her (among a few other things) to keep me going.

        These blisters and my aching body though…xD

      • It sounds so worth it by how you described it. Cheap and easy relationships are usually pretty ho-hum after a few months anyway. She sounds like a sweet girl.

        I think that anyone can be a sap, but some of us just don’t have the opportunity to be one. πŸ™‚ I always seem to fall for the people who cannot, or will not, like me back.

        Haha I hope that the aches and pains wear off soon.

  34. Yeah just got back from another day in the field. Medic did wonders on my heels, but that backpack is still really heavy aha.

  35. Not much, getting back into designing and trying to make extra money because i found a car in Orlando (near my hometown) for only $2,000 with nothing wrong with it!

    Must have!

    • I had an excellent review two days earlier and then yesterday I was called in without warning and was told they were letting me go. I asked what happened and she said I didn’t pass probation. It was like night and day. Hate that company so much.

    • Since I was under 3 months apparently they can. 😦 I called the labour board this morning to file a complaint, but the woman said that they can fire me without reason and for any reason within 90 days. Wow… so employees who are almost past their probation are extremely vulnerable. I hate this system so much. If a reason was given then at least it would have been a little more justified.

    • They already filled my desk too with some random guy. It just really hurts because I always came in on time, never called in sick, and I did do my best. No coaching was given for whatever mistakes I apparently made… so it does hurt. I just have to move on I guess or this will drive me mad… but firing a single woman who’s trying to get her shit together around Christmas is heartless and I will always hold that against them.

    • I applied for EI… thank the stars for that. I hope I’m approved for it… I was fired but without reason so I hope I can have that as a backup. I also applied for jobs. I actually have to start all over again and wait another 3 months for vacation, benefits, etc. I am so upset. 😦

      • Eh ok. Got money, not really presents. Cept my friend says he has something. I got my license and looking for a car.

        But yeah, wasn’t a “typical” xmas but i understand others don’t get crap so…

        Ah , someone will be lucky to hire you , they just don’t know it. πŸ™‚

      • Lol I was sort of in the same boat. I got a gift card and $$ sent through the mail. That’s awesome though that you have a license. πŸ™‚ It’s so exciting being able to drive and look for new cars!! You so lucky.

        Thanks for the kind words. I am treating myself to an EDM show on NYE… Tiesto actually. *OMG* and then after that, I’m just going to be savagely applying for jobs. Lol.

    • Oh, I feel like such a raver now. πŸ˜› It’s an electronic dance music show with DJs Tiesto, Steve Aoki, etc. It should be pretty epic. πŸ™‚ I won’t even bother drinking because I can get high off electronic music so easily. πŸ˜€ I kind of need it!!

    • Omg I can hardly believe it’s been two years since you first commented. In some ways, it feels longer! I was still living in London, ON at that time of my life, I was unemployed, feeling trapped, and empty. It’s amazing how far I’ve come from that point in time. πŸ™‚ Well, I guess I’m unemployed again, but still in a much more favourable situation.

      • Ack. Its amazing though, aha. Didn’t figure this would happen. πŸ˜›

        Where do you live now? UK? Cuz the time on the comments are 3 hours ahead.

        Nice selfie, they can be intimidating to do xD

      • Lol yeah I like how we just picked up after some time had passed and then kept talking. πŸ˜›
        I live in Vancouver. Well, on the outskirts of Vancouver. I’m not sure why the time is off, but I probably didn’t set the time right when I set up my WordPress account Lol. We are in the same time zone if you’re in Washington. Hahaha.
        Thanks for the selfie comment. πŸ˜› I either look really good or hideous in pictures. There’s no in between.

      • I know right xD didnt think i had it in me to stretch out this convo.

        Yeah selfies suck xD But that one turned out pretty πŸ˜›

        Im in eastern time zone, Florida

      • Oops!! Where did I get the idea you were from Washington? Hmm! Sorry about that. You’re lucky to live in a relatively warm place. I suppose for Canada, this city is warm.
        Haha I love that we turned the comment section into a full on conversation. It’s awesome, really. πŸ˜›

      • It’s been going well. It would be going a lot better once I’ve been at a steady job for like 6 months, but I’ve already been to a couple of raves, restaurants, cafes, and the people at my old job have turned out to be pretty loyal friends and we keep in touch. I love being close to the bay, and to the mountains, of course. πŸ™‚
        How do you like living in Florida?

      • Well im mostly in Georgia since my base is there, but the weather is pretty much the same.

        I hang out with my friends or play pc when im home. I don’t get out at all on base. Such is the the introvert life.

      • I’m sorry, wow you totally told me before that you were based in Georgia. Gah how did I forget?
        That’s nice though that you’ve got your friends and pc when you’re back home.
        I get you on the introvert life. Most weekends are spent either in my house or at a cafe, with the odd concert or club event thrown in every few weeks to keep it exciting hahaha. I don’t even drink much anymore… it’s been making me feel sick & I don’t like that. O.o
        How is your gf doing? Have you managed to see her over the holidays and such?

      • Eh, my fault as well. Oh well.

        Uh, well i saw her for Thanksgiving/Black Friday. Its…complicated. Its hard enough being long distance. Then, i can only see her every 2…3…4 whatever months on 4 day weekends. And our relationship is kinda secret.

        And theres been a bit of … Difference in regards to our wants.

        Ahfbjdcjsk.

      • Oh, I didn’t realize that it was a secret relationship. :O It sounds sort of romantic hearing that, but I can understand how hard that must be along with only being able to see her every few months. That’s a shame about the difference of wants. >.< I guess that can happen with anyone though. Is it something you can compromise on?

      • Ehhh maybe.

        Its sexual wants X.x

        But im really just not into it. (We arent doing sex now) but just anything more than cuddles and kisses.

        I think she has wants that down the road might pose a problem because of how im “asexual” i guess.

      • Hm that sounds a little more complicated, but the thing is if she truly loves you, then it’s something she will have to accept. Does she know you’re asexual? It sounds like you’re getting along well aside from that, so that’s good! πŸ™‚ It’s great that you’re giving her affection too, so that is already a compromise.
        I suppose all that you can both do is try your best. I do wish you all the best with it.
        Ha now all that I need is a boyfriend… but my issue is that it can’t be just anyone. I am really picky. O.o

      • XD yeah it is quite picky choosing people.

        Yeah, she’s the one that told me. Mix that and she says she gets really anxious. Everything else is alright. We dont Skype anymore. And the sexual things are important to her.

        I dunno, I’ll see how it goes.

        You’ll find someone. You seem pretty fun and interesting. Only a matter of time right?

      • Oh so she told you. It might not be that, or it could be that. Time will tell you for sure. It’s a great sign though that everything else is going well. She seems willing to talk things through, so that’s very good. Do you still email often since you’re not Skyping?

        Haha I’ve been on a few dates, but they’ve either been creepy, or they seemed too ready to settle down. I think the fact that I don’t want kids could be a problem for a lot of people. But I also think it’s weird when people talk about kids on a first date… But you’re probably right. It should just be a matter of time. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

      • Yeah im the only child. I HAVE TO CARRY ON MY BOODLINE! AHH!

        We facebook messenger everyday. Just havnt voice callled, webcam, etc.

        Ill keep you updated…lol….its just been tough when ive been alone and not distracted by something else.

        Ah you’re a catch! πŸ˜‰

        I guess i sound too cliche… But hey, i met her on vacation.

      • Omg no I hope no one has been pushing you to have kids just because of that. My Mom expects me and my sister to have at least one… and neither of us want to. Mommy is S.O.L. πŸ™‚ Unless I dramatically change my mind in like 5-6 years which I doubt.

        It does sound tough to be in a long distance relationship. Aw! Maybe you could suggest a voice call/webcam chat? It could help a bit? At least you’re chatting on Facebook. πŸ™‚

        Lol nothing wrong with meeting someone on vacation. One of my old school mates married a guy she met on a flight to a resort.

      • Yeah, I’ll see.

        Well my mom probably wants grandkids.. Ughb. Having a kid? Maybe. Sex? NyaHbhbhb idk.

        Well, go on vacation and meet someone already! XD

      • Aw haha. Well, you’re still super young so you’ve got a lot of time to figure all of that out. At the end of the day, it is just a blood line. πŸ™‚

        Lol right? I so should go on a vacation. O.o

      • Let’s see…how about….Japan! Or maybe….Cana- oh. Wait.

        Lets book a trip somewhere , you pick.

      • I hear you! At least you’ve got one more day. πŸ™‚ I dread the whole job application/interview process all over again starting Monday. :/ But after some more months of working…. travel!! πŸ™‚

      • You’ll find a place, don’t worry.

        But man oh man my sleep schedule is messsed up. I never wanna go to bed until i practically pass out. And proceed to slumber for like half a day

      • Yeah I’ve been going to bed around 3AM for the past week so I feel you. O.o The good thing about work is that it does provide that structure of when to go to bed and when to start the day, etc. Then for your weekends you can do whateverrr you want. πŸ˜€

      • Well..definitely forces me to sleep. But ill still go to bed at 12-1 and get 4-5 hours of sleep.

        Sigh. XD no hope.

        Gawd i want a car just to like drive to a store and walk around just cuz , you know, fun. That’s what the cool kids do right?

      • Oh no! Gosh that’s difficult. You need a job that starts later in the day. Wait, how long do you plan to be in the army?
        Yeah cars are excellent for freedom and just going out whenever you want to. At least you’re getting one soon! I wish I lived in the actual city so I could just walk outside and where the convenience is.

      • How about we challenge each other? anything. Cooking, goals, dunno. Just kinda thought of it

      • Im locked in unti oct 2017 :/ then im adios!
        I hate waking up at 6 in the morning X.x

        I used to ride my bike but i took it home to get it fixed. I have to wear a helmet and refective belt…i feel so dorky xD

        Yeah, idk what exactly we could do , lol. Is there an app you use? Fb messenger or something where you could post pictures.

        Cooking should be hilarious. I might be a bit limited but meh.

      • Oooh yes, that is quite early. But at least it is better than starting work right at 6. πŸ˜›
        Hahaha that’s funny that you feel dorky wearing the bike gear, but it’s safe and necessary.

        Yes, I do use FB messenger. πŸ™‚ Good idea! I know, right? The cooking thing can be tricky. But worth it.

      • Cool kids dont wear helmets pffcftt.

        But also its a neon green mountain bike ive had for years soooo….

        And i start pt (physical training) at 6:30 …. Sadface

        Sweet, should i add you?

      • Lol! You know, it’s a little bit hipster with the bike you’ve had for years and all. πŸ™‚

        Eeeks yeah I see what you mean. You wake up early for highly intense training.

        Yes. πŸ˜€ My FB name is the same name as on here. Sara Kjeldsen.

      • Heeey im not a hipster! XD

        Eh…its not intense…just annoying xD

        Did i ever ask you what your heritage was? Kjeldsen sounds pretty cool. πŸ˜›

        Mines italian

      • Im like wheres the add button? Oh well i guess i need to like it or something.

        But i would of done it either way!! Dont worrry! Lol.

        Il have to follow up on your work. I did read the teaser for eve and Adam.

      • Mhmm πŸ™‚

        Back in my barracks room.
        Went shopping so im stocked a little on food.

        Cant wait to read your stuff!

      • I had the unmotivating desire to sleep. And then talked with my gf and went to bed at 2:30. Oops.

        Yeah , i have good intentions but ehhh i guess i didnt do so hot with some wording and prior situations.

      • Lol I ended up going to bed around 5:30 this morning. Could not sleep for the life of me. Then I slept in until 11:30 but when I woke up I assumed it would be much later in the day. But I am not working so it’s okay. Hopefully you’ll get a better sleep tonight.

        Oh no I’m sorry to hear about those bad situations. :O

      • Where did my last message go… i cant find it xD

        Oh well.

        I have noticed when i have time to be productive on days im not that busy, im always super tired xD

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